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Re: Dear You- Love, Duci
« Reply #30 on: August 14, 2016, 02:50:25 AM »
steep hopes
slippery wish
clumsy fingers
hungry kiss


Dear you,

I miss waking up in a tangled mess of limbs and sheets. I had such high hopes for the future, a silent wish of simplicity. But all I do is remember; the past is past, even if I refuse to forget.

I want to sink back into your skin, your mind. Those early stages when you're grasping like a fawn, fumbling through layers of clothes and trust. Those stolen moments in the alley when you're trying to rush back to the apartment to feel all of each other. I miss all of it, but I'm not quite ready to find a new encounter.

I guess I'll just wallow in the dust a little longer.

Love, Duci
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knowing it ain't really smart.
The joker ain't the only fool
who'll do anything for you.

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« Reply #31 on: February 16, 2017, 04:22:02 AM »
I'm sinking deeper, lower,
into this pit of despair,
life is saying let's show her,
just how much we dare.
to hollow out and drain dry,
every little good-bye.


Playing with the Deuce of Hearts,
knowing it ain't really smart.
The joker ain't the only fool
who'll do anything for you.

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« Reply #32 on: February 22, 2017, 05:15:03 PM »
she's a bad girl,
but she makes your toes curl,
a shameless flirt,
but that don't hurt,
her demise lies,
in broken hearted good-byes.


Dear Diary,

I'm a horrible being. Truly terrible.

I went out to the Red Dragon over the weekend, and got this guy named Vayne's number.. Or at least I'm 90% sure that's what the scrawl said. Though, that may have been brawling related and not looks, but I'm sure I could sway him to the kissy side. He was yummy eye candy, a little shorter than I usually go after, but I'm an equal opportunity dater.

Later that evening, Dave was there, and OMG he's so deliciously devilishly good looking. We didn't actually talk, but I swear he was sending me telepathic messages to come to the dark side or something.. I bolted before anything could come of that!

Then, last night, I hit on Darien-Freaking-FENNER! I mean, not that he isn't ungodly good looking and before he settled down, I'd have been lying if I said I did not fantasize about being locked in a bedroom with him. Am I a woman possessed or what?! I know his wife for Hera's sake! Apollo save me, I'm pretty sure she'll smite me in my sleep.. I didn't actually *do* anything, not really.. Maybe just a bit more friendly than I should have been.. And I gave him my number.. DUCI WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!?

I mean, let's be real...
I still hope he'll call.
That way I can be featured in the Post again.

After Darien left, I schmoozed at the bar. I could be a bartender, you know, with that perfect draft beer pour game I got going on. Someday, a guy (maybe a girl?) will really appreciate that.

So I'm leaning back behind the bar, playing eye footsie with this Tall-Dark-and-Dreamy dude. I mean, he was easily at least a half a foot taller than me with my Amazonian heels on. Talk about DROOL. He also had the most intricate ink covering his arms.. And man, he's got good game. I asked him how much it covers and he basically said I'm welcome to find out. I'm mentally fanning myself now. He owes me a favor because I got him a beer, but I would have been alright with a kiss. Which I almost got. When I practically did a body shot off his neck. Mm, delicious. I had to bail right then and there because, a) work stuff, which wasn't wholly true when I told him that, and b) I probably would have lost my mind and let him do bad things to me. Did I mention he's possibly a daemon or angel or something? He gave me a feather. That he pulled out from the back of his shirt. Fallen angel maybe? I don't know.. I'm playing with the feather now.. Maybe I'll keep it here for safekeeping. I don't even know how to contact him again! I suppose we'll run into each other.. eventually.

I'M GOING CRAZY! kbye.

Love,
Duci


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The joker ain't the only fool
who'll do anything for you.

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« Reply #33 on: February 26, 2017, 02:19:49 PM »
I'll always remember,
the way you made me feel,
can't ever forget you,
what we had was real,
there's a place in my heart,
reserved for only you,
always and forever,
hope you think so, too.


Playing with the Deuce of Hearts,
knowing it ain't really smart.
The joker ain't the only fool
who'll do anything for you.

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Re: Dear You- Love, Duci
« Reply #34 on: May 19, 2017, 12:28:02 PM »
endless road,
empty feelings,
left alone,
broken ceilings.


Voice recorded diary entry:
Nineteenth Day of the Rhydinian Fifth Month of the Year Twenty Seventeen

I'm in a funk again. That inbetween feeling, where I don't feel quite like myself. I'm floating, literally. Sometimes I wish I'd just float away. I suppose floating endlessly in space wouldn't be terrible, it's pretty. Perhaps just a little cold, and maybe lonely. I don't kn----

Static.

End of entry.
Playing with the Deuce of Hearts,
knowing it ain't really smart.
The joker ain't the only fool
who'll do anything for you.

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« Reply #35 on: December 20, 2017, 05:10:24 PM »
i'm tired of this lonely ache
i'm willing to do what it takes
to fill it up with lust and lies
just enough to pretend it didn't die


Dear Diary,

I'm ready to feel again.

Love, Duci
Playing with the Deuce of Hearts,
knowing it ain't really smart.
The joker ain't the only fool
who'll do anything for you.

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« Reply #36 on: December 21, 2017, 04:48:50 PM »
from the deepest, darkest pits of despair
please tell me you'll still be there


Dear Diary.

I almost forgot what it was like to feel alive. I spent so much time this year wallowing in the deepest, darkest spaces of the universe. I don't even know why. What was I upset about? Why was I hiding? It was lonely and I lost myself in the monotonous reel of daily life.

I'm glad I signed up for IFL again this year, and that the Chae's were willing to let me be their pale mascot. I haven't been able to make it to every duel, but I know at least one of us will show up and there's always food and drinks after. It's nice to feel apart of something, even if it's not as close knit as the Lazerdicks were.

Speaking of, maybe I should go get some omelettes from Cor and catch up.

Love, Duci
Playing with the Deuce of Hearts,
knowing it ain't really smart.
The joker ain't the only fool
who'll do anything for you.

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« Reply #37 on: December 21, 2017, 05:48:00 PM »


baby, go ahead and let yourself in,
your lips may play me like a fool,
but I can't deny the way my skin,
sizzles with desire for the way,
you make me feel about living in sin.

but it never lasts, it never lasts.



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The joker ain't the only fool
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Re: Dear You- Love, Duci
« Reply #38 on: April 14, 2018, 02:39:43 PM »
love me, love me,
please don't stop there,
tell me that I'm pretty,
and that you care.

I just want you to want me.


Dear Diary,

Does everything fizzle out?
Will I always get bored and look for the next thing to keep me busy?
Or will that always happen to me?

Love,
Me
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knowing it ain't really smart.
The joker ain't the only fool
who'll do anything for you.

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Re: Dear You- Love, Duci
« Reply #39 on: August 20, 2018, 11:50:44 AM »
there's a fire brewing 'neath my skin,
i can feel it burning me from the inside out,
c'mon and help me commit these sins,
it's the only way to douse the flames.


Dear Diary,

I know that I tend to be a bit impulsive.. I mean, if I want something, I get it. I can find someone to satisfy my immediate needs with no problem... But how I quell the constant need to be wanted? I just want someone to want me.

Love,
Duci
Playing with the Deuce of Hearts,
knowing it ain't really smart.
The joker ain't the only fool
who'll do anything for you.

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Re: Dear You- Love, Duci
« Reply #40 on: October 27, 2018, 03:03:36 PM »
I can feel it
Pulsing
Beneath my skin
Like liquid
Burning
Where you have been


Dear Diary,

I cannot stop thinking about him. I can feel the remnants of his touch all over me, a slow burning desire that refuses to die out. I do not want to call him and admit how much he has influenced me. I am not needy. I refuse to sink that low. Maybe if I go out to the club tonight I can burn him out of my system.

I miss a simpler life.

Love,
Duci
Playing with the Deuce of Hearts,
knowing it ain't really smart.
The joker ain't the only fool
who'll do anything for you.

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Re: Dear You- Love, Duci
« Reply #41 on: February 08, 2019, 01:12:23 PM »
fingers dance along your edges,
memorizing every dip and peak,
before you leave me again,
baby, please, don't speak,
let me feel you instead,
I only want to remember you,
the way we are right now,
please love me like you used to.


Dear Diary.

I think I know my problem. I like the chase, the parts I can't think up on my own. And once I get what I want, I lose interest. I don't like to feel stagnant, I like to keep on a trajectory, and if someone falls in that trajectory, that's cool, but once I pass their stop and they bounce, there's no detouring for myself. I might swing by again, and that's okay, but I'm not looking for something permanent. Permanence feels stifling, like I'm suffocating.

Who am I anymore?

Love, Duci
Playing with the Deuce of Hearts,
knowing it ain't really smart.
The joker ain't the only fool
who'll do anything for you.

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