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Sweet Crusades / Re: What Goes Unspoken
« on: January 26, 2017, 11:38:13 PM »
My gift is a curse, there?s no other way around it. How can anyone think knowing others? thoughts is a good thing? I know every bad thing anyone has ever thought or felt about me.
The list is impressive.
I can?t blame them? How can I? I was an awful, sad excuse for a person.
I still am?
I?m trying, though. I?m trying so hard, and I wish they could see that?
They?ll never trust me? Not fully. Not after what I?ve done.
I?ve seen what Minoko has thought of me, I?ve experienced her distrust no matter how much I?ve tried to make up for it.
Emlen?s the worst, though. He was beneath Solaris? thumb before.
How can he not understand?
It doesn?t matter.
Their minds are made up and I can?t change them no matter what I do.
Maybe I?ll always be a monster.
Maybe I was born that way.
So be it?
I?ll never try again.
Everyone expects me to be a villain. So that?s what I?ll give them.
I?ll be the best at being bad.
That?s all I can do? That?s all anyone will ever expect.
All anyone will see when they look at me, is a monster. So that's what I'll be.
A monster.
The list is impressive.
I can?t blame them? How can I? I was an awful, sad excuse for a person.
I still am?
I?m trying, though. I?m trying so hard, and I wish they could see that?
They?ll never trust me? Not fully. Not after what I?ve done.
I?ve seen what Minoko has thought of me, I?ve experienced her distrust no matter how much I?ve tried to make up for it.
Emlen?s the worst, though. He was beneath Solaris? thumb before.
How can he not understand?
It doesn?t matter.
Their minds are made up and I can?t change them no matter what I do.
Maybe I?ll always be a monster.
Maybe I was born that way.
So be it?
I?ll never try again.
Everyone expects me to be a villain. So that?s what I?ll give them.
I?ll be the best at being bad.
That?s all I can do? That?s all anyone will ever expect.
All anyone will see when they look at me, is a monster. So that's what I'll be.
A monster.