Going Solo

[JadeRosenWolfe]

I warn you now this is very long and may not make sense to everyone. And no I am not ranting or B^&*%ing .I am worried and wodnering and trying my best to get by.


When this all began. Jade had been retired from my mind as a role play character. I had played her long ago. She had great romance then too. And a pack of her own. When I deiced to undertake the character again. I knew things would have to change. I wove the old romance in to her past and changed it. Jade Wolfe became Jade Rosemonte-Wolfe. I could not forsake the name sake. He past was littered with blood shed and loss. I knew her future would have to be different.

When I came to RDI and started playing Jade. I never would have guess where she would end up.


Now she's married, and has two of her own children and two sons that she calls her own.

As I the mun behind Jade write this I do it for a reason. Darkmere mun is gone, so it would seem its been almost four months since I last spoke to him on AOL. ( Many know he plays more than just Darkmere, and many know that I play more than just Jade) And now (Since I wrote this all out at the end of June but am only posting it now) Its been longer.

But through it all he was for me what Dark was to Jade. Or what Dark is to Jade. Since I have deiced that I will try to keep writing solo for as long as I can. It wont be the same, for I may have talent. And yes I knew all of his characters as if they were my own. But part of me feels like it is missing. I know it is just role play an escape for most of us.


But for me it was more. I could delve in to the story and get lost. In all of it the good, and the bad.

I know that many here may not know me or for that fact like me. But I am far past needing to be liked by all. And I know that many here knew Dark and though they may not have liked him or his style of RP. I know the name and his style is well known.

I am writing this first in my own forum so that I may write as I see fit. ( and as you will see I too will post it eventually in dm) is a look back years of RP. Not just as Jade but as the many charries I have played here.

I will not say them all. I have no wish for that.

The more days that go by the more I wonder how long I can write solo for these great, (or what I think are great at least) stories. Though I know his charries well enough that they could be my own. It will not be the same.

I have asked around and gotten no response. As a natural worry wort.I did worry. I still do. We have all lost RP partners. They poof, they leave, they forget or move on. Some of us know what its like to loose them really. The person behind the charrie leaves this world not just the RDI world but the real world.

I have no way of knowing what has become of Dark mun . I hope and pray that he the mun is all right. I know I will likely get some response that I should retire, in full. That it is not my right to carry on his charries by my own. But I cannot allow Jade or Shea or any of my charries to die. Not yet. I am not ready to say good-bye to RDI or rping even if I only post in the forums



As I look back over Jades beginning and my own here. It was hard and rough but seemed to smooth out. Now there are rocks and bumps in the path once more.

But I have deiced for the sake of the charries that I love that I will continue on. For at least a little longer.

And I ask with hope that someone has heard from him or knows something and will contact me. PM me here as Jade or as DevilishOne (Shea) Or any other PM address should they know whom else I play.

(and my hope remains, I cling to it.)

I have thought about seeking advice. From my fellow rpers. But I would not know what to ask. I have lost RP partners before and begun again and again, but those times are long past I was younger then and could start a new charrie with no issues. Now I have 9 charries here, and all were involved with someone Dark mun played. So I would not know how to start again alone. It be worse than dating.

All I ask is that if anyone out there knows anything to please let me know.

It is all I can ask.

Jade, Shea and the rest will go on as long as I am able to keep writing for them. To keep the danger, romance and life that they have alive. When the day comes, and I am sure it will that I choose to retire it will be with a heavy heart for RDI and DM have become a part of my life.


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I built up these charries to be who they are.But they became so much more.


I have a few charries and some may fall ebehind now. The story is harder to keep going solo than I thought. But I will try to keep going with the others for as long as I can.


I always appreciate anyones thoughts, or two cents or what ever. I'll take what I can.



Thank you..
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Jade Rosemonte-Wolfe Alcar .Wife to the Dark Brooding Bastard.


“Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. The fearful are caught as often as the brave.”

[HGLowe]

I ask the same. If anyone hears of Darkmere (or Victor, or Lang, as he might be known by), please let me know as well. I've been worried about him myself, and no one seems to know where he's gone.

Jade -- I'll venture this much: If Dark doesn't show back up, I don't think you'd be entirely wrong taking his muses over. If something terrible happened to him, then I don't really believe he would want his characters to go with him. For that matter, I have a standing agreement with my play partners (one in particular) to write my muses if I'm gone.

In the meantime, I'll keep him in my thoughts and prayers as well.

[Dean Winchester]

This may be stating the obvious, but have you tried to contact him via PM or email? I don't have any idea what's going on with him, but I've found that oftentimes when summer comes along, people get busy doing other things and aren't online as much. Or perhaps something happened to his computer. I would try sending him an email or PM and see if he responds. I would also wait until fall before making any definite decisions about what to do. Once summer is over, he may return. Hopefully, there are other players here who know him and can contact him for you and let him know that you're worried. I hope he's okay, and I hope you hear from him soon. *hugs*

[JadeRosenWolfe]

Yes I have emailed and pmed him.Many times. And I know summer is slow for some people they work they go out of town. But I also know my rp partner.Its not like him to be gone for this long. (Months. ) I also know that in the past he had comp issues and issues with his internet.But even then he always found a way to get a hold of me.


I can hope that someone does contact me should they know anything. I will likely wait long past flal before making any major decisions. I aslo hope he is alright.

Thank you for the hug and for the advice. I will keep hoping for the best.
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Jade Rosemonte-Wolfe Alcar .Wife to the Dark Brooding Bastard.


“Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. The fearful are caught as often as the brave.”

[SilentEnchantment]

Last I spoke to Darkmere, I believe he was having computer problems. Also a lot of storms in his area and he was worried about his PC getting fried.

It's quite possible that his PC may have died. He's took a brief leave before without word, but I believe it was due to his PC dying then too.

I was wondering about him as I've not seen him on in months... but I just concluded that his PC must've died because he can't go long without pestering me. lol. Poking.. prodding.. etc.

Jade, my best advice would to be carry on as you see fit. If Jade the charrie is not ready to move on, play a different one. Or create a story as where Darkmere may have went? Perhaps he's temporarily in his kingdom getting things in order? Something sort of general so that if he does come back you've not changed his character.

I've been where you are and it sucks soooo much, I know. Just hang in there though. There are lots of new people to meet and that you can have fun with. Don't be afraid to reach out to people and broaden out a bit.

If I hear anything, I'll let you know.
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[JadeRosenWolfe]

I ahve tried my best to continue onas id Dark is still there. I dont want to go chaing his charrie.Or writing to much and verging on chnaging somehting that is not mine to change.

And the issue with starting over is I have 9 charries on RDI. All some how tied to someone Dark mun played. And so its hard to keep going period. I dont wnat to change to much but I need to keep the fourms and stories going. So I write as best I can trying not to change too much. I likely will send Darkmere off some where( and the others as well I suppose ) until soemhting happens to let me know whats going on.

've thought of making a new starting agin,but my style is easy to read and most people seem to avoid me and my charries no matter how hard I try to create a great story. * they are great to me..* So its hard for me to reach out when I feel I am hitting a wall,or many walls. Not for lack or trying though. But I have been welcomed bya few now, and its nice to know I am not alone.



Thank you. For keeping me in the loop if you hear anything.

I am glad that I can reach out this way.Else I woudnt know where to go.
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Jade Rosemonte-Wolfe Alcar .Wife to the Dark Brooding Bastard.


“Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. The fearful are caught as often as the brave.”

[Natolii]

Darkmere has been having Computer/Phone Line issues and sometimes he does disappear for an extended period.
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Mama keep the faith it's alright
Your boy's a mercenary man
A soldier made of steel
A shotgun rings; the wind is calling my name
Fields of gold beneath a blood red sky
~ Mercenary Man, Firewind

[Shauri]

Lang? as in Darkwing? That Lang? the goober little soul I'd find in OOC lobby and pounce??! ... or visa versa... Ak! Hope he's all right!

I could be in a pissy poor mood, come in and get into those stupid slapshot antics with him and I would be turned around with a smile within seconds. Not that we ever really RP'd much, just the stupid antics in the OOC room, which I wouldn't count as character interaction. Just the silly comic relief in between or something. Yeah, I sure hope he's all right.

And some places have been getting hit hard with storms. He might disappear from time to time, but does he usually do it without word of some kind? Could be his comp did get fried. If so, I hope that's the worst of that situation. Some places got hit hard with storms and flooding.

Another thought is the economic situations in this country. If one cannot afford to pay for an internet connection (or get their comp fixed), then one eventually won't be connected until they can.

There's a lot of *What If's* behind the reasons why someone might suddenly not be around, and you could spend agonizing moments trying to figure them out. My advice is... don't. You'll only succeed in making yourself feel worse and compound any lack of creativity you might have to play around the situation.

I have to say I can relate to your situation.

My advice... give it time. Take a couple months and don't do much, or do things that can be done without his characters like maybe work on your character's relationships with their other friends or their work or social events with others. Or, turn to a character that you could most easily get away with roleplaying their life without Dark's other characters. Or even if you have a character not linked with his.. play that one for a while. Anything to do with his characters avoid it, dance around it and involve your characters with other players characters.

Then if the situation lingers longer then a few months, or you get word that Dark won't be back either for a long time or else unknown... then make up a story to reflect those absences of his characters and leave a way for him to work them back in when he is able to come back and play... I would think with so many of your characters interacting with his you'd be able to come up with some kind of reasonable aspect on that.

Or if you need, drop your roleplay altogether for a while. Take a week or two, a month or two or whatever, get your mind off it and just... Breathe. Clear your head and then come back to it. I know I've done that one from time to time for whatever reason I'm stuck on writing. It helps.

But mostly.. be patient, and open to other possibilities.

Maybe starting one new character isn't such a bad idea... maybe have them involved with some of your other characters to give you a way to flesh that character out and play with your existing ones ...but then springboard the new one to start interacting with other people's characters as well. Then you'll have a focus to play with while Dark is gone.

Anyway, hope that helps!

[Icer1978]

I haven't heard from him, but he could have had what happened to me at least a year ago.

The internet died, I had tried to get on, and it gave me invalid everything, I had to wait a year, though a friend let me use her computer when we were together.

As for the stories, the players I had been with had it that Icer had gone to the valley with an illness.

I too am hoping he's alright, but it could just be internet/computer issues, or storms.
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Trouble, me? ::making her best innocent face.::

[JadeRosenWolfe]

[JadeRosenWolfe]

anyone who doesnt already know.Dark Mun has returned.



I'd like to thank everyone who gave me advice and helped me through the time that passed. And for letting me ramble a bit in here as well thank you.
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Jade Rosemonte-Wolfe Alcar .Wife to the Dark Brooding Bastard.


“Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. The fearful are caught as often as the brave.”